We sometimes feel unaware, unconscious and unwilling.
All of which I felt this Monday morning! I realised that usually during these moments, I rely on my self-caring practices, friendships and mentors to help me in experiencing and identifying how I feel, so that I can begin the transformative practices that allow healthful and nurturing feelings to take precedent and get me back on track.
Then on some occasions I resist this and revert to chemical props. I know that I am Caffeine intolerant; but I still ‘kid’ myself that I will feel better after a cappuccino.
What happens? I feel sick, clogged up, with a cotton wool brain. Far from feeling enlivened, I feel drugged – literally!
Why do I resist the practices that I know will make me feel better, why tell myself that I don’t have time for a brisk walk/swim/healthful, mindful breakfast; any of which will set me up for the day, feeling like Wonder-woman (maybe without the big blue knickers, though).
Sometimes "doing-ness" can appear to dominate and block our view of being-ness. Our souls and spirits need being-ness like oxygen- and we all feel it when there's too much doing. See how you feel when you can allow something. Then compare it to resisting.
It can be something small like recognising that you are resisting the need to sit down and rest for a few minutes with a coffee (decaffeinated!), or having an early night (with a book and a cup of hot water with honey)
Or bigger, such as allowing yourself to acknowledge a ‘negative’ emotion because ‘you shouldn’t feel like that’ (before taking action to change the situation which generated it), being in your skin, in your emotional state and most of all recognising that ‘this too, will pass’.
Where in your life are you allowing, or resisting, right now?
(Thanks and blessings to SARK for inspiration for this)
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